Living and Learning

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Awhile back one of my horoscopes read that “Sometimes, you need to learn how to let go, and you Gemini happen to learn fast. You’ll soon find a new equilibrium and you’ll be able to channel your moods and bio-rhythm. You’re discovering a whole new you.” Ironically the same day The Everygirl re-posted this inspirational quote. I don’t want to keep settling, I have so many dreams, goals, ideas and adventures I want to embark on in my life. Yet, often times I feel that I’ve been holding myself back.

It’s taking me quite some time to actually write this post, and even now, I don’t think I can fully express the road of emotions I have been on within the last three months, more like year. Confusion and frustration, has led to many nights feeling lonely and questioning decisions I had made for my career and personal life. Even doubting my abilities, but it wasn’t until recent trips back east, reuniting with family and friends that it hit me. I know exactly who I am, what I want to do, and where I want to be, but I just haven’t managed to be myself here in Tucson. All I’ve been doing is trying to find somewhere that just felt like home, but it turns out that it really isn’t where you are, but who you’re with that really matters. It took some personal battling of my own, before accepting that what I need to do is move back to the East Coast. I didn’t, and still don’t want to feel like I’m giving up, needing to go back to what’s known to me. But that’s not the reality at all, and it took many talks, or should I say have the sense talked into me, by very dear friends, that career-wise it’s where I have the chance to grow and lead me to where I want to be in the future. I have a love/hate relationship with New York City and New Jersey, I know that it definitely isn’t for me but I also know that it is what I need right now. The thing is, I’m done seeing it in a bad light, it is a completely positive opportunity that awaits me. See moving to Tucson, experiencing all that I have with my personal life, career, and everything else that life has managed to throw my way has only made me live, and learn more about myself, which wouldn’t have been possible if I hadn’t taken the leap of faith. I’ve come to realize that you live and you learn, that life has a funny way of showing us everything happens for a reason.

I miss being me, and after quite some time, I finally felt like myself when I was home. Even now as I write this, it makes me sad and frustrated that I can’t just pick up and do what needs to be done to make me fully happy again. But you can’t focus on the negative either, and although everything isn’t as I’d want it to be right now I’ve been staying extremely positive because I know it will all be changing for the better very soon. Plus what’s the use in letting sad emotions bring you down, the more positive I am the more fulfilled I feel. The reality is that life is too short, too precious, too unpredictable to wait until tomorrow, which is why I’m going to make the most of the remaining time I have here.  This is probably one of the most personal posts I’ve written, but it’s something I’ve needed to express. I’ve found a gratifying ease and comfort with writing, which still boggles my mind since I’ve been someone whose always found it difficult to express how I truly feel, regardless if it’s through spoken or written words. I never thought when writing my first post that The Dreamery would be a way to creatively drive and motivate me, while being an outlet to clear my head and share the things that make me the person that I am. I’ll just keep choosing in favor of my passions and staying open, and I know that soon enough everything I’ve ever wanted will slowly begin to fall into place. So I’ll leave you with images from my life lately, and an inspirational quote that keeps bringing a smile to my face everyday…

“You will get there when you are meant to get there and not one moment sooner…so relax, breathe, and be patient.” – Mandy Hale

IMG_7134Spontaneous trips to new places…IMG_7141 IMG_7145 IMG_7148 IMG_7150 IMG_7152 IMG_7158A single beautiful pink flower amongst the wilting bunchIMG_7162 IMG_7175Pretty benches in lush green gardens IMG_7178 IMG_7182 IMG_7184Can’t wait to start growing vegetables and fruits in my garden once againIMG_7196 IMG_7199 IMG_7204First time seeing a beautiful magnolia tree, the flowers are so perfect they almost don’t look realIMG_7208 IMG_7216First time taking a brewery tour at Monday Night Brewery and seeing how this hoppy drink is madeIMG_7222 IMG_7224Indeed weekends are overrated, every night should be one to be enjoyedIMG_7251Hidden discoveries in my own neighborhood IMG_7253PicMonkey CollageLovely Anthroplogie window shopping
IMG_7267Celebrating my grandfather’s birthday, on the other side of the Atlantic, with some Portuguese wineIMG_7289I’ve been enjoying weekly Sunday barbecue lunchesIMG_7303 IMG_7337Discovered Smoothie Factory one afternoon and instantly fell in love with their island delight, a blended mixture of pineapple, banana, orange juice, and other tropical delights along with a green tea shot for extra energyIMG_7418 IMG_7425Morning walks with my little man to Rillito River Park, and no there isn’t a drop of water in sightIMG_7431 IMG_7436Favorite afternoon pick-me, Tazo Zen and Wild Berry White teasIMG_7528While home I needed to make the trip up to Lake George, even if meant a seven hour day trip just to see my best friendIMG_7536But I got to spend the entire day on the boat, enjoying the lake..the only thing I wanted to do. I would definitely trade my car in for a boatIMG_7537 IMG_7539 IMG_7547 IMG_7552 IMG_7554To go speeding through waves…IMG_7560And ride up to my dream lake front house, yes that is what I want the most. Oh one day!IMG_7563 IMG_7588The beautiful Sagamore ResortIMG_7628This is exactly how I want to spend my days, closer to my best friend, reveling in all the wedding fun within the next year. Can’t wait to be a bridesmaid for the first time!!IMG_7658I’m always amused by the things you find on road trips, now that’s a lot of sugarIMG_7653Love my new dainty jewelry from local Tucson boutiques, especially my dream braceletIMG_7662Finally spent the weekend in Scottsdale, and stayed at the stunning JW Marriott Scottsdale Camelback

IMG_7663 IMG_7668 IMG_7676Breathtaking views of Camelback mountain all around usIMG_7680 IMG_7686And even more breathtaking sunsets, Arizona is so well known for
IMG_7688PicMonkey CollageIt just wouldn’t be brunch without my favorite, Eggs Benedict with yogurt, at Rita’s Kitchen IMG_7730 IMG_7719 IMG_7724 PicMonkey CollageI’ve been spending more time in my garden, which has paid off. My basil has had a growth spurt, it tastes, and looks lovely alongside some new brightly colored additions

IMG_7822 IMG_7817 IMG_7824 IMG_7856Sushi and Saki dinners with my roommate at one of our favorites, is the cure for any bad dayIMG_7861The unique packaging of this beer instantly caught my eye. I did a little research and turns out it’s part of their Living the Dream Limited Series lagers, hmm coincidence maybe, I think not!IMG_7905Tried chocolate covered honeycomb for the first time. Too sweet for my taste buds, but finally got to see what all the talk was about
IMG_7914I’ve learned to treat myself with simple things I enjoy, like fresh flowers, a piece of chocolate and a nice bottle, or two, of wine

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“Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.” – Robert Frost


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